Monday, March 28, 2011

Stars

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Having walked back from watching a movie at Uncle Lewi’s, I get to the front of the house and before going in I take a moment to look at the night sky. There is no moon and the sky is a blaze of stars. This is only a small portion of what’s there, but still there are so many and they are so far away. There are millions of worlds out there, perhaps not worlds as we recognize them but nonetheless.

I am filled with wonder and a sense of the scale of things. We are very small. I think about people living in places where there is no darkness who may never have this experience and am glad to live in the country.

Gordon Bunker

Monday, March 21, 2011

The Same Old


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I love my country, but I am not proud of my country. The resources we continue to squander around the world out of greed and fear is atrocious. And the hurt we create in doing so is awful!

Now we are bombing the shit out of Libya, and once again while we can’t quite allow ourselves to be honest about it, our actions have everything to do with keeping the oil flowing. A few days ago I was having lunch in a local taco joint and a number of my fellow diners were U.S. Army personnel, dressed in camo. I couldn’t help thinking instead of wearing embroidered U.S. flags on their upper arms, more fitting symbols would have been logos for any one of the big oil companies.

In the mean time, people in Japan are in a world of hurt beyond our worst nightmares. Imagine the good will the United States could create if we took all the energy we are directing into violent control of resources and redirected it into rolling up our sleeves and helping the Japanese and many others.

We have a real potential to make peace in this world if only we could muster the political and spiritual will to set down the guns. I would be so proud of my country, and proud to be an American, if only I saw some genuine indication of this happening.

Gordon Bunker

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

The Treasure


“It’s the second day of an estate sale on Old Taos Highway!” R. called out to me. She was in her office checking listings of estate and yard sales on line, and loves going to these events. It was Sunday morning and I was just coming back to cognition with my first cup of tea. R. scooted into the living room in her PJs. “Everything will be half price! Wanna go?” When she asked, the wild gleam in her eyes told me my options were limited.

I’d never been to an estate sale but I have been to a yard sale. Or two. In my life. Someone else’s dusty old junk, kind of depressing all piled up, and I manage to keep my life fairly simple by not buying things I don’t need. But, “Mind is like parachute Grasshopper,” popped into my head, “function only when open.” So I looked at her, raised my eyebrows and said, “Sure, I’m game.” R. was completely tickled – this alone would make whatever the experience might be more than worth it. So we got dressed, went out for a coffee and croissant and thus fortified put ourselves hot on the trail. I navigated, and the extra jolt of caffeine helped hold any remaining skepticism at bay.

. . .

Last summer, my neighbor C. went to Germany on business and I cat sat for her. One evening after she returned, I was walking back from getting the mail and saw her sitting at a little outdoor table on the hill behind her place. I hiked cross country up the hill. “Welcome home neighbor!” I called.

C. suggested I have a seat and a glass of wine with her. We always have good conversation so I was happy to accept. “Oh! I have something for you.” She said as she went into the house for a glass. She came out with a small parcel, layers of packing paper and adhesive tape. “Here, and thanks for looking after Spec.” I unwrapped the package, and there was a wine glass.

“Wow, thanks, C.!” I said. She had no idea I have a thing for glass so it was an extra special surprise. “It’s really cool… I’ve never seen anything like it.”

“This is typical of the glass you’d get in most any restaurant in Germany if you ordered wine.” She said. “It’s every day, utilitarian.”

I was thrilled. We filled it up and shared news and thoughts and watched the sun go down. It was a fine spontaneous time with a great neighbor and friend, out here in the ‘hood. When I got home, I washed the glass and put it in an open spot so I could admire it. But it looked lonely sitting there on it’s own… I might have been anthropomorphizing a little bit. I wondered, “where would I ever find one like it?”

. . .

There were a half dozen or so vehicles parked on the street. This must be the place. R. and I got out of the car and clamored up the steep driveway. Men, dazed, were sitting in lawn chairs. Others were lugging pieces of furniture out the side door, taking care not to trip or smash into things. Inside, the happy energy of a feeding frenzy took the edge off the fact we were tearing apart some now deceased person’s former home. But here we go, what the heck, R. and I scoped out the place. It was pretty well cleaned out, but clerks in red aprons let us know at every turn things were half the marked price.

We wandered into the dining room and there in a built in glass front cabinet, among other odds and ends of china and glass were four, count’em, four of the wine glasses. “No way!” I exclaimed.

R. was busy looking at china and turned to me. “What’s that?”

“These glasses…” I picked one up and examined it and told her about the one C. gave me. The sticker was marked, “$8.” I picked up another, the sticker was the same.

“We’ll take four for those.” One of the clerks said in a perfunctory tone, then added, “Each.” She’d been at this since Friday and probably her feet hurt and she wanted to go home. Not to be too interested I set the glass down and wandered around with R., all the while hoping no one else was whisking them away. Unable to stand it any longer, I went back to the dining room. They were still there.

“I’ll go $12 for the set.” I said to the clerk. Hey, I almost would have paid thirty two, but this is part of the game.

“Nope.”

I looked at her. Nothing about her indicated she would budge so I said, “Ok, sixteen for the set.” She gave only the slightest hint of a smile and directed me to the table out back where I could pay for them.

For the rest of the day, I was like a kid who had found buried treasure. R. shared in the excitement. She knew in a sense, I had. Back at her place we washed the glasses and held them up in the late afternoon sun streaming into the kitchen. The grape motif glowed and the stems flickered. We filled two with a good oaky Chardonnay - maybe it should have been a Riesling or Liebfraumilch, but oh well - and toasted, לחיים! לחיים!” (“To Life! To Life!”) They are beautiful in a Germanic way, they feel sturdy in the hand.

Gordon Bunker

Monday, March 7, 2011

The Birds Are Going

I could see piñon, locust and cottonwood trees. Also a variety of neatly trimmed shrubs. R. and I were doing errands and for the moment we sat in the car in an office complex parking lot while she took a call. I gazed out the windows and saw not one bird near or far. Not one. While the sunlight coming in felt good, I felt a sense of alarm stir deep inside me.

There were lots of cars. The parking lot was full of them. On the nearby street a constant stream of people went by in them. I did not see a single pedestrian.

In Silent Spring (Houghton Mifflin, 1962), author Rachel Carson describes her fear that one spring day, due to environmental stresses caused by human activity we may find ourselves in a world devoid of wildlife and thus without the sounds of their calls. It is an excellent read. The book created quite a stir, particularly in the pesticides industry and is credited with bringing the widespread use of DDT to a halt. About it, noted biologist and researcher Edward O. Wilson said, “… Silent Spring delivered a galvanic jolt to the public consciousness and, as a result, infused the environmental movement with new substance and meaning.” This is probably true, but it wasn’t enough.

In my day to day existence I am an optimist. Life is exceedingly good. But when I take a long view, I do not like what I see. At all. What I see makes me very sad. And sadly, it’s just the way it goes.

Gordon Bunker